shit was so much easier. you didnt have to worry about shit and you were always happy. nothing tugged at you like sex, drugs, fitting in, and watever other destructive shit that you can come up with. im in highschool now and everyone is changing including myself. i used to say ill never smoke weed or drink alchohal but i do both now. the reason is its the only way for me to experience happiness anymore. i used to be able to hang out with some friends talk, play, laugh, and everything would be right in the world. now everyone is different, even people who said theyd never change. and so now all i think about is sex, drugs, and money(<to be used for more shit to fit in). and i dont get much of any or at all. the only one i seem to get a hold of is drugs. and when i dont have them i wanna go fucking insane because life for me is so boring without them. i have to force myself to go through the day and try my best to pretend everything is fine when its not…. i just hope i grow out of this and everything works out in the end… because if not imma say fuck the world and do a whole bunch of crazy shit inevitably leading to my early grave….








